Faith!

"Faith is stronger than ur conviction"

Long back I had an argument with somone as to why don't I trust people..certainly even I wasn't sure why? for as far as trust is concerned I believe i had it on just 7 people in these 20 years and amongst those 7, the first one was me on any day. I retaliated "I do trust people..its just that I dont have faith on them"...."so whats the difference anyway?"..My addled brain went more flopsy... and I decided to be on a no trust mode untill i'd found what is faith!

yes there is a difference and a stark one. yesterday one of my colleagues at the newspaper agency called up and we spoke about the confusion thats presently hangling around nandigram. We decided we'l meet over a coffee and discuss about the article that has to be on print.
As we sat over a coffee...she narrated a clip scene from nandigram over which my article was to be writen.
"An eight year old girl(bali)...was trapped behind a burning bus..the local commotionist were on a random scurrage to burn and kill people, neverthless of their age and gender....(anybody above twelve was handed a gun to patrol...cause- he should be a localite and he should be a male..and any girl below twelve was either massacred along with her family or if she is over twelve she is raped and then murdered!) ...a local boy(16 years) watching from a distance ran to help the girl ... he was her neighbour... as he stood over the bus top..shoved away the gun and gave the girl his right hand so that she can hold it.....the girl replied "ab bharosa nai hai" (I dont have faith in you)...the boy not being able to decide what to do bent down to the possiblity of gripping her....the girl backed off...as soon as the boy jumped behind to pull her out...the state transport bus blew into pieces...burning them to ashes." all of this was filmed accidently by a fallen camera ..which presently happens to be the red witness for nandigram genocide.

I felt heavy.... for after i watched the almost blurred retaped vedio, that too half of it... I went speechless. balefully i asked her..."why the hell she did not trust him"... since my colleague being quite senior to me....she said somthing after which all came to one fix.... as if the pieces of my puzzle were all set. "she did trust him girl.....its just that she lost faith in him.....she wasnt scared of he being a non-conformist....she was scared of he beinge a human at all. she was scared of inhumanity"



You are born...you have sibblings...you love someone...you marry...you have kids....but even after all of these..at the age of 90 when u face a near death experience you first crave for ur mother...not because u did not trust all these people .... but the first person , you ever had complete faith on this earth is your mother. Be it 9/11 massacre or bhuj earthquake...people helped people not coz they trusted each other...or for that matter no body trusted anybody...it was one human faith that made a stranger ur life saviour.

when victims of beslan school massacre(russia) were treated at the JFK traumatic child caution centre...few unimaginable manuscripts came to define humanity...
amongst the two kids who were trapped at the school gym one being a grade 6 girl(rejevak) and another grade 4 boy (leo) ... who were sacked at the corner in a space of one school bag, they were almost one over the other....the scripts read..."he was on top of me...he wanted to pee...but he was scared for we were not allowed to talk....he looked into my eyes...without saying anythin i nodded.. he pee'd over me...the boy near me puked....and they killed leo"
when asked how did she find at all what leo wanted to say...rejavek herself did not know.
this was human faith....no body trusted anyboy.....all they did was to look at each other....they played upon what is known as emotional trasfix.

when Your human brain cannot act, by using senses...it shuts its receptors and switches on the emotional brain (Amygdala) ... and then its the work of amygdala to reciprocate..it can be a negetive response (as in the case of bali) or a positve one (as in rejaveks case)..but without the use of any physical response...since amygdala is in no connection with the rational brain(neocortex)...u actually never come to know how did u respond at all....it is this amygdala or the emotional brain that responds faith....and it is this neocortex or the rational brain that responds trust.
When u face death...when u feel love...when u act on the spurr of a blink then it is this emotional brain that makes u respond. This is magical indeed..for theres an instinct to kill one another for no reason and theres the other to stop it as well .. all in a sigle unit called human brain...

and we finaly came to consensus that trust is something which u can control....and faith in all reasons in uncontrolable...instinctive and gifted by god
you might trust a person for 40 years and then one fine day...he may walk over you. whereas you may havent even met each other before...but at the first sight u might feel a sense of belonging....i asked ... "is that what we call love at first sight"...we both laughed..but we both knew that of all the people we have met and we will meet, we ourselves were not sure who are our faith keepers..for till date all we bothered about was to win this trust game!

"unlike what u may realise it has got no connections with the number of years You have spent with each other.... its how many years you desire to spend more... that decides faith" - Helen Keller